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IM SO FAB TODAY!

Up at 6am, a brisk jog in the park, shower and cup of coffee. Flip through morning papers and mail, get laptop going and start downloading my emails for the day.
7:30am I'm off to the office where Teri my supervisor starts bombarding me with paper works until 2pm and settle down to lunch; Koay Teow Soup and club sandwich.


This past few days, there are times when I just can’t let go of him until I’ve seriously mourned him, a seriously drama queen behavior hahaha… including wearing his shirt, browsing through old pictures of us together.. there also times when I obsess about him times when I want him to back and times when all I can think about is picking up the phone and calling him.. there were the times… I know it isn’t worth.. he’s not right for me, someone else is out there, and im free to look for him, I deserve to feel loved and super sexy haha..
The truth is I did everything to make the relationship work. It just means that the relationship wasn’t meant to be.. I don’t hate him for hurting me… I just thanked him for everything…
I’ve done done my home works and learned those hard earned lessons. Who cares if he has a new girlfriend. I’m far too fabulous to crane my neck to look up the past when my present and future are spectacular as me.. he may fall In love again before I do, but that doesn’t mean he won....

MS. JANE.... change your life for good!!

I was in a throes of my own Big Break up. And boy, was it messy! I was a big fat screaming mess. I cried myself to sleep every night. Actually, i cried when i woke up in the morning, cried when i took a shower, cried on my way to work, cried in the bathroom at work, cried to my girlfriends on the phone, cried on the way home from work, cried on the couch at night, and then cried myself to sleep. I knew this was my Big break up because of how it felt. Or rather, how it made me feel---completely crushed. It was as if my ex's giant foot had stomped on me, flattening me like a pancake. I'd been through a break up before but nothing had prepared me for this. But even though i was in tremendous pain, I knew it was for the best. Deep down i knew he wasn't right for me. As much as I wanted him to be THE ONE, there had always been plenty of evidence that he wasnt.. not to mention. I knew that the sooner I accepted this, the better off I'd be. Still, I resisted. I though he brought something to my life that was otherwise was missing. I thought he held the key to my faboulousness. In breaking up with him I thought i was no longer special.I was wrong.
I realized that he didn't hold the key to what made me faboulous. Even with my puffy eyes and broken heart, I was still pretty strong. I just had some healing to do and some stuffs to figure out. Like why i thought I needed him to make me feel good. It was then that i decided I didn't want to fall in love again until I made peace with my own issues and insecurities. So I decided to make use of my pain by writing about it.

During my post-break up recovery, i feel like im in a emotional roller coaster i go back in forth many times before i fully moved on, i just ride it out, i trust that i will get through it and that il be stronger for doing so, my heart felt like its been shattered into a trillion tiny pieces, but its still there hehe... It's still beating and It's still believes in love it just needs a little time to heal.
Nobody knows how hard this is.

I know there's someone out there who's better suited for me when the time is right, i can have a relationship i can truly deserve, a happy, healthy, whole one. It's okay not to be there yet, i know it takes time and ive got all the time in this world.

The Break Up comes as a bit of shock, my relationship with him seem to be going along just fine and then out of the blue "baaaammmmm" it was over??? i was left standing after he delivered the one-two punch, also known as IT'S OVER....

I MADE IT...

I made it through an entire week without crying at work,and back at the gym and feeling good, i graduated...

It's friday night and for the first time since i can remember i dont have to go see him online. Saturday afternoon rolls around me and i have hours to fill with no one to fill them with.
My favorite picture of us together, happy memories come back....NAH! i dont want to take a U-turn..
i owe it to myself to stay strong.. Missing him... is one thing...oh well i am just allowing myslelf to miss him after all i loved him he was a big part of my life and of course i miss him now that he's gone! but im perfectly normal..

another chapter

When i met him i started to love again.I was thankful that atleast God gave me a chance be with him even in a short period of time. It doesn't matter if he break my heart just the thought of that he made me part of that day i met him is enough for me to treasure him. Hope he knews it. It saddened me because i can no longer see him in my dreams, i am setting aside it now cause i know someday, someone will take over his place.

And eventually everything will be history.

I'd realized that everytime i got my heart broken i am winning memories and lessons, and gaining experience to be a better person. I just let God move in his own ways... and i know before i knew it everything will be perfect again... :-)

HAILEY.... ITALY..

A friend just asked me... What do you think of italian guys? I'm just wondering how Italian boys act. i'm sure they are all different, but generally, how are they different from american boys?

oh i said... uhmm...Go to Italy,move your ass there... haha you would certainly meet a lot of the nice ones. It is easier to find good looking guys in italy, they are just everywhere, but you really have to pick not only nice looking one but also the one with good personality and intelligence.
I was very picky, because of that, I met someone who happens to be an italian, he is nice looking, well educated and with an exceptional charming personality, and very straight forward...i kept my judgement in place.I am sure many italian guys would go you you when you are in italy, but make sure you keep your judgement in place when there are a lot of them for you to choose from and only look for the best one. and hey they love to eat pizza...and they eat a lot of spaghetti and meatballs... i think they're hot,,, well at least David Henrie is (that guy from Wizards of Waverly Place) lol Have fun in Italy Hailey... ciao...


F.Y.I.... ----nationality doesn't make the man, the parents do--------

**wHy Do pEople CheAt**

So, are cheaters born cheaters, or do certain situations cause people to cheat? Probably a little bit of both. Here are some situations that make people cheat:

1. Bored
I'd say this is the most common reason that people cheat.It's tough to keep that edge throughout a relationship. Things start off grand and then level off and then you both realize that it's still real life. When you meet someone else, that inaugural excitement of a new relationship kicks back in.

2. Dependence
At first glance, cheating seems like independent behavior. It could be interpreted as doing what you want, when you want. But I would argue that cheating is a dependent behavior. A cheater is dependent because they are not strong enough to break up with their significant other in order to get with the new person.

3. Confusion
Sometimes life or a particular situation can get to you. When the perfect storm of confusion is going on in your head, you make mistakes.

4. Because They Let You
If any guy ever cheated on me, I'd break up with him immediately. Forgiving a cheater is putting up with it, and starts a vicious cycle. That person who cheated may lose respect for you and might continue to cheat-because they know they can get away with it, because you'll continue to take them back.

5. Nurturing
If someone is mistreating you, then your first instinct is to get away from him or her. But sometimes it's not that simple-maybe you are raising kids together. If you feel trapped in a bad relationship, it's only natural that you will run to the open arms of a person who treats you well.

6. Revenge
This is quite simple- an eye for an eye. Cheat on them if they cheat on you. If they continuously hurt you or abuse you in some way, you do it to get them back.

7. Confirmation of Attractiveness
Sometimes when you're in a long relationship, or if your significant other is taking you for granted, you begin to wonder if you're still attractive. Perhaps, because you were out on the dating circuit, you felt more attractive when you were single. If you have an affair, you've proven that a new person can be attracted to you.

8. The Thrill
Some people just enjoy the thrill of cheating: running around secretly, risking getting caught, and creating thrilling moments with a forbidden romance.

9. They Don't Consider It Cheating, Even Though You Might
Relationships have that grey area, usually right before you become exclusive. He thinks date #4 is when you're "together," and you think date #2 is when you're "together." If you haven't talked about exclusivity, someone may think they are well within their rights to see other people, even though the other person in the relationship may not.

I don't understand why people don't break up as soon as they have an urge to cheat. Is it natural to have temptation, or is temptation a sign that the relationship is losing its fire? What reasons would you add to this list, and do you disagree with any? If you've ever cheated, why did you do it? Could you forgive a cheater? If you are single, but seeing a person who is in a committed relationship, does that make you a cheater?

FOR ME:: better follow where your HEART is happy!! LOVE SUCKS BIG TIME ;p

grrr... read between the lines

i don't know what's goin on with me in this past few days i cant even explain it.. i dont know i dont know... shit happens!